Wednesday, May 21, 2008

What a Week-and-a-Half Old Baby Can Teach You

I was reading from Mark 10 this morning, and Jesus says this, "I tell you the truth, whoever does not receive the Kingdom of God like a little child will not enter it." I've always known this truth. I've heard about child-like faith. I've preached about child-like faith. I've known that God wants us to be dependant on him. I even remember singing that Jars of Clay song back in high school called "Faith Like a Child." With all of that said, though, I'm convinced that until recently I haven't known truly what child-like faith is. Having a newborn baby in the house the last week and a half I've learned so much.

The first thing I've learned about child-like faith is dependence. Ella is dependent on me and Heidi for, changing her diaper, dressing her, bathing her, holding her, loving her, talking to her...there is nothing Ella can do without us at this point. Which is a great comfort for her (though she doesn't know it) because she can't screw anything up in her life. Sure, Heidi and I will have plenty of opportunities to screw up her life. But, if we're to have child-like faith in God...complete comforting is that? God doesn't screw up...ever. And if we're truly coming to him like little children, then we won't screw up our own lives either.

The next thing I've learned is innocence. Just looking at Ella, you see innocence. Not only does she not know right from wrong, she doesn't know wrong. She has no concept of sin. Oh to return to this level of innocence. I've lost a lot of innocence over the years, and I long to have that back. Life would be so much easier if I didn't know the pain that sin brings. I dread the day when Ella learns sin. Sin is something we learn by doing. And, the minute we do it, we lose innocence. In an instant we loose a big part of our child-like faith, and it is impossible for us to get it back...on our own. Which is why we must depend wholly and fully on Christ. We must receive the Kingdom like a little child...completely dependent on the one who will not mess up our life. If left to ourselved, in our adult ways, we will screw it up. In fact, it's because we screw it up that we need a Savior.

God, I want to depend on you for money, my food, my house, my wife, my daughter, my life...I place them in your hands. Restore the innocence that I lost a long time ago.

Monday, May 19, 2008

Work Sucks When You've Got a Hot Wife and a Baby Girl at Home

So, I went back to work today. I didn't want to go. As I sat at the light on the corner of Eastern and 28th St., my eyes teared up. All I wanted to do was be at home with my girls. But, I made it to work, got some stuff done, and made it to 5:00 when I got to go home and be with my family.

One thing that was very cool about work today was that a guy who lives at Park Place came into my office wanting to introduce some kids in the complex to Christ. He and his wife have a ministry, and he wanted my permission to advertise, etc. and basically just start to mentor kids. I, of course, gave him the green light. Then we spend about 20 minutes in my office praying for Park Place...for the kids who are directionless, for the drug-dealers, for the prostitute. And, there in my office while we were praying, this man began to prophesy over me...I won't go into details of what he said right now, but I will say that it was very encouraging and very specific to my situation considering he doesn't really know me at all. It was nice to have some time with God in my office today.

And, of course, it was glorious to arrive at home and hold Ella Joy on her eighth day outside of the womb.